Saturday, June 22, 2013

Graduation (And What Comes After)

graduation day photo from the field / wearing my striped tee from shopcalico.com (outfit photos coming soon!)
four of my favorite CDs (Gregory & The Hawk's "Moeni and Kitchi", Jason Mraz's "We Sing. We Dance. We Steal Things.", my summer 2011 playlist, and Belle & Sebastian's "Write About Love") / some recent purchases from Calico and Asos/a graduation gift from Elissa, my boss/friend at Calico)

So far, I can't easily sum up how things have felt since graduation. I am, no doubt, indescribably relieved to be done with high school. Not to be a total bummer, because I've had some good times along the way, but overall it was pretty horrible. I don't mean that in a "people picked on me, I was never 'cool' enough" way. Quite the opposite actually. I felt admired sometimes because of the way I dress, but more as a thing to look at and not to be interacted with or even friends with (?!). I don't share lots of my personal feelings here because that's not exactly what this blog is about, but things feel very cluttered right now and I need to vent somewhere. I guess the primary issue is that I feel like, at this point, I should have more to show for being (at least in my eyes) a good friend and and generally outgoing. I left high school with all of one friend. But at the same time, I'm starting to think I expected too much from people who aren't and have never really been on the same page as me.
I guess what comes from this is that I'm really hoping to meet some new faces soon. If all goes as expected, I'll be going to college right in Boston come the end of August. I'm kind of nervous about it all but for the sake of my own sanity, I need something new.

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